I think this is my space
My private space
I dont think anyone has found me
I'm not sure if anyone wants to
It's good
Erotic
Here I touch on things
And I dont think anyone is watching
Are you?

silk
and bows
and red ribbon
tie them tight
so they cut into my skin
so tight
I can't get away
wrap me up as a gift
and then
when the time is right
and the heat inside
melts the snow outside
unwrap me
but no need to untie me

Fearless living?


That's a joke!





Everything we are and do and become
is manipulated
by the fears we have
and the fears we've overcome
and the fear that are so deeply planted
that they paralyze us

so what am i afraid of?

making it worse than it already is
loss
success
heights

Stranger things then most I guess

I don't fear pain
Not the physical kind
I guess not even the emotional kind
I know it to well
Sometimes, it's a bitch
Some times it is a comfort
Because it is familiar


I don't fear the unknown
Or the unseen
Why bother fearing things that you cant control anyway

But i fear the loss of love
And i fear rejection
And i fear success
And the responsibility it brings

And sometimes i just fear movement
'cause i get comfortable
and I'd rater watch than participate
But not often

And if i can look at it just for a moment
i can try not to fear
try to live
and hope my heart doesn't break
again today

And the star shines bright
And I should be in the sprit
In the light
And my world should be calm

But chaos reigns in my head
And I feel a sense of sadness
And the only joy I have
Is that I feel sadness
And not doom

breathless

and then beauty enters your world
you are moved
beyond any words

First you thought it was your heart that stopped
but your heart is full
it's bursting
it's not your heart at all

no, your heart hasn't stopped
the world has
your whole world is in pause

as you gaze your eyes on the most wonderful creation
you try to focus, to really see
the room spins
you hear no one
you see no one

just you and the wonder that moves you to this point
where the world around you ceases to exist

and it is you
and this
and it is stirring and incredible

When the outside world breaks back in
And reality is back again
you play it cool

ya, okay,
very nice

they wouldn't understand how felt
how you feel
in the presence of creation

Poster child for risky behaviour

I'm in a mood
a sexual mood
a sensual mood

I'll dress in black today
the shirt will be low

too low
the jeans tight

too tight
the heals high

too high

never too low, too tight or too high

not for this mood

not today

I'll go places I shouldn't

I shouldn't go in dressed like this

totally inappropriate

heads will turn

people will talk

I'll in walk with my head up

Shoulders back

Hair tossing

lips moist

and red

No, I won't walk
Ill slink
Ill stalk
Ill look to pray on some innocent
Some unsuspecting fool

To wrap in my spell
To be trapped in my web of lust

and then i'll abandon them
uninterested

I'll still be virtuous-- what's the harm in seduction?

What harm is there?

to

bring

some

one

to

that

point

?

Now

Having devoured the pray

Now victorious
and very very satisfied

I leave

and you'll never forget

that I was here

i go from wanting to scream
to wanting to cry
to wanting to die

to hurt myself
or someone else

i wont though
it wont make a differnce if i do
so why even bother
im just a mouse
you don't even know im here

so what happens
to me
makes no difference to anyone but me

and right now i am complacent

can i come?
yes, i can.
do you want me to?

Someone had a dream
A bad dream
They dreamed i was dead
Maybe a part of me is

it isn't so wonderful
try your best
keep your promise

ask
seek
help
compromise

and still

happiness hides

you know it's there

lurking some where

but it refuse to show it self

If you didnt exsist in the real world

if there was no fear
if you could always say
what you want
what you feel
say what you believe to be real
if you could be yourself

you could live
you could love

and they wouldn't judge you
and they wouldn't stone you
and they couldn't find you
when the time for your ultimate demise had come

what would you say
would you call out injustice
would you break down walls
would you steel a kiss
would you cease to exist

too much honesty
not enough scrutiny

could you live

anonymously?